im really starting to hate the single life again.  i miss having someone :(  its hard to find a GOOD girl for me these days.  i have the worst luck.  every girl ive dated has either cheated on me or fucked me over in other ways.  i have NEVER cheated, i have NEVER fucked any girl over.  i have made mistakes yes, but i do whatever i can to make up for it.  its because of my past, that makes it hard for me to find someone that is truly right for me.  i want to break this pattern of picking the wrong girls so bad.  i just dont know how at this point :(  it really sucks.  but right now, i know that it isnt a good idea for me to get into a relationship because i have other things i need to do first like getting a job, getting a car, stuff like that.   i want to be able to take a girl out on dates, pick her up, drive her places.  idk, im venting.  nobody is up for me to vent to, so im just putting it on here.  besides, its MY tumblr, i can say whatever is on MY mind and not give a fuck what anyone thinks.  to be honest, this is the only place i can really go to say whatever is on my mind without getting blown off.  minus a few exceptions like my best friends crys and tom.  but they are sleeping right now, so yea.  here you go haha anyway, im done venting for now. just wanted to get this out before i bottle it up to much